I just got done working a full day, 845-1015, I am sun burnt and my feet are screaming at me but I am feeling pretty damn good for once.  Usually I come home and just want to kick my cat across the room but not today.  I think things are starting to change for the better around here and I am liking that idea.

So I was mowing the lawn today and yes, I ran over a toad.  I didn’t notice this until the second drive by because when I am on the lawn mower I am in the zone.  Not the zone for mowing the lawn well but in the zone for some serious thinking.  I do not have an iPod so all I have to listen to is the loud steady hum of the mower, I could probably even run over a small child without noticing.  So I just sit there and contemplate anything from my day to my future, to many things beyond myself.  Today’s topic… how it is sad that kids young as first grade show signs of growing into a certain social stereotype.  I work at a day camp of first through fourth graders and I can see which kids will grow into the prep or the stuck up pretty girl or even kids that will eventually become the stoner.  The one thing that kids do have going though is their inability to see these things that separate me and you.  They play together without barriers which would be great if they could all grow up without changing that.  But they won’t and this world will be full of bigots and racists just as it is now… too bad.

This place is starting to make me wonder if I am ever going to make it.  I need to get out and do something but I can’t seem to find the motivation to do so.  I am surrounded by insolent bastards that will never make anything out of their worthless lives.  It is quite disheartening to know that the only conversation I am likely to hear at work is either about smoking weed, getting drunk, or fucking.  These people don’t have one intellectual bone in their body.  I wish I could just up and quit but I have to find something else first, any suggestions?

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Oh rainy days and the internet, how I love thee…

So my mind has been pretty blank the past couple of days, not much going on up there.  It has been raining on and off but I haven’t had the motivation to get anything done that needs to be but is that because of the weather or something else.  I mostly just sleep now when I don’t have to work.  Wish I could find the energy to get something accomplished.

… Maybe tomorrow.